Is This A Mid-life Crisis?

     The depression has improved, but the last couple of days, I have been overwhelmed with a feeling of discontent.  I just want ...something, something new, something different.  Is it romantic love?  is it a career?  Is it money?  Is it a new life in another place?  is it new friends?  is it all of the above?   I HAVE developed a new crush (yes I am pretty fickle).

 His name is Jonathan Rhys Meyers, and one of the movies I have watched him in does happen to be really touching and romantic.  It's always hard for me to watch those.  I am so fed up with this body, too, being so fat and unattractive.  If I DO want romance, it won't happen with me looking like this.  and I feel my friends don't really care much about me-of my two closest ones, one judges me, and I feel the other uses me a lot.  and I am DEFINITELY frustrated with having no money and the state America is in.  well, I guess it all boils down to stop whining and DO something, right?