This is the first day of the rest of your life

    Started looking for a job today.  am not sure how much luck I had.  did pick up a couple of applications though, and there actually were a couple of places that were hiring I could apply to online.  As hard as I know this will be, I really do want to do this.  I am tired of having no money and no control over my own life.  I want to be independent, free.  Depending on other people sucks.  I would like to have my own phone, my own car etc, and not have to ask anyone for anything.
     Going out today illustrated this point more than ever.  The heat is horrible and I am out of shape, so I asked a friend to take me around.  That never happened, so I asked her if she would just drop me off, and I would then hoof it.  Finally got her to but only because she was already taking someone else somewhere.  That is always the way.  She is always doing things for everyone else based on how needy and pathetic she thinks someone is.  I guess I am not pathetic enough, so I always get the short shift.  well, no more.  I want to depend only on ME.