It's That Time Again

     I don't know if it is simply hormones, over sensitivity or if I really have a REASON to feel this way.  All I know is that I am miserable today, hurt, lonely and feeling completely neglected.  I  honestly feel as if I have no friends, that no one cares about me at all, that they just look upon me as a burden.  I don't really want to get into WHY I feel that way; I just do, and I don't know how to stop.
     Sometimes it just seems it would be so much easier to not let myself care, to shut down entirely, never love or depend on anyone for anything, to just be alone.
     I have an aquaintance I just hang out with.  We do things together now and then, share a few laughs, and that is the extent of it-nothing serious, nothing heavy.  I don't ask her for anything; she asks nothing of me and the emotional bond between us is about as substantial as cotton candy.  Maybe that is all there is.  As much as they talk of love, as much as they seem to want it, maybe human beings just don't really know how to GIVE it.  They can TAKE all right, and they will TAKE until they bleed you dry, but GIVE..?   Who knows-maybe I am guilty of the same thing.  All I know is that I just don't have it in me to try right now.  I am so disillisioned that I just want to forget the whole human race, somehow just learn to love and care for myself and not need to ask anyone else for any kind of help or emotional support.